Denial... My Logan...

Logan is Perfect, really he is...

(Aside from that darn argumentative mouth! 

Where does he get that from?)

You wouldn't even know from looking at this guy that he has any health issues.

He runs 8-10 miles a DAY

(13-14 on Saturdays)

He has a resting pulse of 44 beats per minute...

He gets Strait A's without batting an eye in advanced classes.

He's witty, funny, creative, you name it!

Other than, a thin, 3.5 inch horizontal scar on the Rt side of his abdomen, 

You would never guess he has any health issues at all...

It would probably be even hard to imagine he has a liver condition,

let alone one that challenged his mortality.

Logan sees a liver specialist usually once a year,

lately every two years.

He started seeing a 'new' liver Dr this year,
 first time since we moved back to CA 3 years ago.

Logan's Liver Specialist (out here) had requested that
we have an abdominal US with doppler done, sometime this summer.
We had already done the labs, and they came back great,
but the liver can be a tricky thing and the more information you can get the better.

Months ago we scheduled a follow up appointment for the end of summer, 

to discuss the results of the ultrasound.

I had plenty of time to take him to get the US.

Dr said - it is not urgent.

NO PROBLEM, by end of summer.. eons of time!

...

Well, then I received a reminder phone call last Friday (1 wk ago),

 about the follow up appoint that I scheduled for this past Monday,

 and it KILLED my Denial again!

Shute, yah, had to reschedule til today...

Remember, I am in DENIAL about Summer EVER Ending ...????

So, amidst HS Registration, Kay's College Classes, PT, and and ....

I had to schedule and actually take Logan to the 'special' Ultrasound place
that is the ONLY place that his doctor trusts, which is about 25-30mins away...

I didn't actually get an appt for him til Yesterday, Thurs..

Remember, his follow-up appt was rescheduled for this morning,
yah cutting it a little close...

Oh, to make it more fun, Logan needed to fast from midnight the night before as well.

No food.  No water, til after the appointment.

appt at 10am, that is late for my early bird.

He did wait patiently to be called back.

He brought a bottle of water to drink immediately after, smart.

 and he was kinda cute on the table.

It was nice to have Todd with me, as well.

Even though, he appears healthy, I always worry. 

 So, having Todd by my side, when I am worrying about the kids is very comforting to me.

The Ultrasound tech was really nice.

She even said that he had BEAUTIFUL innards!

Excellent!

It is good to know he is as cute on the inside as the out!

His Specialist Appointment was this morning.

She is baffled by him.

She said he appears - PERFECT!

Which she keeps telling us defies all LOGIC 

and everything she has ever seen, 

because with HOW sick he was when he was little, 

and his diagnosis, he really shouldn't.

He is a true miracle, we know that.

One that I am thankful for everyday...

His specialist is so confused by him that she wants him to see one of the top specialists in the US (who Logan did see when he was little), to make sure she isn't missing anything, and just in case....

There is always the looming, just in case...

His body is healthy right now, and I am thankful for that.

However, the awareness of how fragile the human body is, 

and how close we were to possibly losing him will never, not for a second leave me...

It is always with cautious gratitude that I look at him, 

as he is proclaimed perfect.

Throughout his life, he will always have to make his health a primary focus.

He does not have the luxury of taking for granted his health with bad choices that he will redeem later.

He cannot allow himself to become overweight, let alone drink even a sip of alcohol, and has to be cautious with even over the counter medications...

He will always have to be aware of what he puts into his body and treat it with the utmost respect and gratitude.

He will constantly and diligently need to appreciate the miracle that his health is.

Which is a little scary to think about as a Mom.

There are not many people that I know that could meet the challenge that he has in life.

But, he is not like most people.

He is strong, not just physically, which is true.

But, he is a strong PERSON.

He has awareness and appreciation beyond his age.

His mind and zeal for knowledge define him.

He is not distracted by the details, but sees the big picture...

He is one of the few people on this planet that I believe is up for this challenge. 

Honestly, he is a constant reminder that each healthy body is a miracle, 

and should be treated with gratitude and thanksgiving...

He gives me a greater appreciation and awareness of Life and how truly precious it is...

I am thankful for the blessing that my Logan is...

That I can NOT deny!