Why???

WARNING - Read at your own risk, as I am a bit rambly.

I haven't felt like blogging lately. I have been thinking, watching, and contemplating...


Yes, the earthquake in Haiti initiated this process... I am always taken a back when my eyes are 're-awakened' to the realities of life. I pray for the people in Haiti with all of my heart. I wish there was more that I can do for them. I want to adopt ALL of their little orphans that need a home, and love them, every one. It kills me to know that children, especially children, are suffering... Todd finds me a bit irrational, but alas, I can't help it.


It is so easy to be so near sighted, really. I mean with my own family and pets to worry about, how easy it is to distance myself from the 'realities' of life. How shielded are we in the U.S. from such extreme poverty... and such extreme suffering...

In the end, though, we are really all subject to "the Powers that Be"... Mother nature, or anything else that should come our way...


Really, living in Southern California is a reminder of that - we expect the 'big one', anytime... We have faith that our buildings will hold up better than in Haiti, and most will. Money allows for privilege in the form of building codes, expert engineers and so forth. Not all will be saved, but I believe most will. Those that are injured will not go without medical treatment to the point of countless amputations. Those that need food and water will be taken care of...

However, unexpected things still loom ... You never know - Yesterday, our kids were on lock down at school for a "Tornado" warning, yes in Southern California - go figure.

Why? Why? Why?

I am left wondering about this world we live in. About the leaders of our planet. About those that come to power (now and throughout time) and what they do with that power.

Why isn't there a 'must be a Good person' prerequisite to being in a position of power???

Why are there bad people in the world? Since, I was a tiny child I have had a really hard time with accepting two things about this Earthly life:

1. How could anyone do something hurtful to another? No matter how many times I have tried to understand this. Psychology classes, ethics classes, nothing makes logical sense to me. And how in the heck do these really bad people tend to rise to power and get others to do their bidding??? I will NEVER understand... and maybe I don't want to.

2. Death... I know I will see my loved ones again. I DO NOT CARE. I am SELFISH. I want them with me for my ENTIRE journey. I hate to be away from my family for very long, and to have them poof gone makes me kind of devastated. Don't get me wrong, I am not so selfish that I would want to keep my love one alive in a vegetative state or if they were suffering. But, it doesn't make it any easier to live without them. No more hugs. No more fun visits. No more THEM! I just don't like death. At the same time I respect death, and I am happy for the person that has gone on... But being left behind sucks!

Oh, and all the death and terror right now in Haiti... Those poor people. Just the smell of death is enough, and I am willing to bet many that have been left behind envy those that have gone on...

Yet, while some die, some too live. Even under extreme and miraculous circumstance. A 5 year old boy was pulled from the rubble, 8 days out? Nothing short of miraculous. His parents presumed dead. Why? Why was he saved?

I like to believe that we each have a purpose(s) to fulfill in this life, and while some people's purposes seem grander than others ALL are important, and this sweet boy has yet to fulfill his. Perhaps, even just by his miraculous recovery, he has fulfilled the purpose of renewing hope. Hope that miracles are possible, even in such perilous circumstance.

Alas, Let us strive to bring Hope to others

Let them see the light and good in the world.

So, Why? Why do bad things happen??

Because, it gives the rest of us the opportunity to grow,
and to think about what is really important in life.
No, not that cool new phone or toy or car.

What is really important?

Caring, compassion, loving others.

Ok, enough, I am done...